Sexagesima Sunday 24.2.19 The Call
There is cost to being a disciple. We cannot be entirely
passive before God; He expects us to do some work, to carry some part of His
Cross.
God has taken the initiative in creating us, and then in
saving us. We are required to respond – in body and soul; all that we have.
One disciple who responded very fully was St Paul. We have
his story in the epistle today. He is not your normal disciple; a great deal
better than ‘normal’. He does certainly rattle our complacency, if we are
suffering from any.
There is a paradox here in our faith, that the more we
commit to following Our Lord the more trouble we are likely to see.
We might expect that as the great Healer and Miracle Worker
He would give us an easier life, if we stick close to Him.
But look at St Paul and countless other saints. They
suffered all sorts of things. Yet they did not consider themselves to have been
cheated by Our Lord, as though He had lured them into some kind of false hope.
The saints did not mind the suffering because they did not dwell on it. They were more interested in expressing love for God. When we love enough we do not count the cost (Teach us, good Lord, to serve you as You deserve, to give and not to count the cost, to fight and not to heed the wounds, to toil and not to seek for rest, to labour and not to ask for any reward, save that of knowing that we do Your will. (St Ignatius of Loyola)
The saints teach us detachment. We are a bit afraid of the
path they took. We may be happy with the miracles but not the suffering.
God never tests us beyond our capacity, we are assured. What
He will do, however, is stretch our
capacity to love, and with that our willingness to suffer. We look for the love
not the suffering. We forget ourselves, as the saints did.
Being Christian is not just theory; we really have to put
ourselves on the line.
It is a specific transaction between Him and us, Him and me.
He speaks directly to each potential disciple, and asks them to Come, Follow
Me.
If we were one of the Twelve Apostles it would be easier to
see. They were mending their nets and Our Lord approached them. They must have
felt special at being part of such a small band, and able to share so closely
in all that He was doing. But we come along after millions of others have been
called, and we might feel somewhat less important as a result.
It may look to us that we are just part of a large crowd,
but He knows each one of us inside out.
And each call is on the same basis as the original Twelve.
See yourself on the seashore, mending your nets, and He comes along. What will
you answer?
He wants you, and you in particular.
We discount ourselves in a kind of false humility. He would not want me, etc.
If we respond as He wants it will be like a St Paul, with
maybe less drama. But the principle is the same: Do with me what Thou wilt.
You have created me, saved me, and now called me. I accept
that call; please help me to do that, and with full commitment. We can ask Him
to be gentle with us at first; He will know what we can take, and will arrange
things mercifully.
Anyway there is nowhere else to go (cf Jn 6, 68).